[Kuroto]
(…......Hanashiro.........)
I thought I was more self-aware.
We were just intentionally pretending not to realize it.
I was already starting to feel happy whenever Hanashiro came to visit, but for a different reason from the beginning.
[Kuroto]
(…......aah, right)
This was the first time in my life I ever felt attached to something, so I became frightened once again.
I was afraid of being afraid of dying.
The part of me that was happy about something I gained was only detestable.
[Kuroto]
(…......even though I had been waiting for something like that this whole time)
…......I was feeling lost about something like that now.
[Kuroto]
(…......Hanashiro.........)
Up until now, because there was a clear distinction between which mattered more, my own life or the lives of all the humans in the world, I thought it was foolish to consider anything else.
Because I didn't mind dying, because I planned on preparing myself for it, I always gave up.
…......that's why I never realized it. The feelings Hanashiro was holding onto.
Even though we were that close, I was so focused on holding myself up that I didn't even try to consider what he was feeling.
[Kuroto]
(…......I wasn't thinking about anyone else but myself)
…......and then.
[Kuroto]
(…...............?)
Finally, that moment arrived.
[Kuroto]
(…......aah.........)
[Kuroto]
(…......that day, huh.........)
[Hanashiro]
“.........Kuroto, it's been a while. Have you been well?”
[Kuroto]
“What are you doing here at this hour........
…......I mean, it's fine, come in for now.”
[Hanashiro]
“Sorry, I don't have time for that.”
[Kuroto]
“Don't have time, even though you're covered in snow? You're going to catch a cold.”
[Hanashiro]
“.........Kurotaka isn't here, right?”
[Kuroto]
“.........what?”
[Hanashiro]
“I'm really sorry this is so sudden, but.........I want you to run away with me.”
[Kuroto]
“...............you didn't come to kill me?”
[Hanashiro]
“No way.”
[Hanashiro]
“That person has already figured out the real reason I've been coming here.”
[Kuroto]
“.........the white bird?”
[Hanashiro]
“I thought I could put it off forever, but it's my own fault for not taking them more seriously.........I was told they could no longer wait.”
[Hanashiro]
“They told me I need to kill you right away...............”
[Kuroto]
“...............I see.”
[Hanashiro]
“.........what's with that accepting look!?
No way, are you really going to tell me to kill you too!?”
[Kuroto]
“.........Hanashiro.”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't want to! I'd rather this world be destroyed than kill you!”
[Kuroto]
“Are you saying that seriously?”
[Hanashiro]
“Do you think I'm not being serious?
What about you, why would you say that, are you saying you don't understand how I can think of you in this way!?”
[Kuroto]
“..................”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't want you to gone.........”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't ever want that.........I don't want it!”
[Kuroto]
“.........Hanashiro.”
[Hanashiro]
“Hey.........let's run away, okay? If we go now, it'll definitely be all right. We can still go without anyone finding us.”
[Hanashiro]
“The end isn't certain yet.”
[Kuroto]
“.........but.........”
[Hanashiro]
“There may be a way for you to live.”
[Kuroto]
“.........do you really think so?”
[Hanashiro]
“.....................!”
[Kuroto]
“...............s-sorry..................”
[Hanashiro]
“...............Kuroto.........let's go, okay? Come with me.”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't care where we go. Let's go somewhere you don't have to die, where I don't have to kill you, okay?”
[Kuroto]
“.....................”
[Hanashiro]
“Because.........I have no one else, but you.........”
[Kuroto]
(…..................)
[Kuroto]
(…......and then.........)
We then left the house.
With no destination in mind and our visions filled with nothing but white, we just walked on toward an unseen goal.
I was unable to shake off Hanashiro's hand grasping mine, but it wasn't just because he was overly desperate.
I was surprised he was still able to hold onto hope.
The snow covered everything, it was cold, and in this unknown world, the only thing I was certain of was Hanashiro's warmth.
It was only at that time that I felt like there really may have been something for us at the end.
(…......Hanashiro.........)
I thought I was more self-aware.
We were just intentionally pretending not to realize it.
I was already starting to feel happy whenever Hanashiro came to visit, but for a different reason from the beginning.
[Kuroto]
(…......aah, right)
This was the first time in my life I ever felt attached to something, so I became frightened once again.
I was afraid of being afraid of dying.
The part of me that was happy about something I gained was only detestable.
[Kuroto]
(…......even though I had been waiting for something like that this whole time)
…......I was feeling lost about something like that now.
[Kuroto]
(…......Hanashiro.........)
Up until now, because there was a clear distinction between which mattered more, my own life or the lives of all the humans in the world, I thought it was foolish to consider anything else.
Because I didn't mind dying, because I planned on preparing myself for it, I always gave up.
…......that's why I never realized it. The feelings Hanashiro was holding onto.
Even though we were that close, I was so focused on holding myself up that I didn't even try to consider what he was feeling.
[Kuroto]
(…......I wasn't thinking about anyone else but myself)
…......and then.
[Kuroto]
(…...............?)
Finally, that moment arrived.
[Kuroto]
(…......aah.........)
[Kuroto]
(…......that day, huh.........)
[Hanashiro]
“.........Kuroto, it's been a while. Have you been well?”
[Kuroto]
“What are you doing here at this hour........
…......I mean, it's fine, come in for now.”
[Hanashiro]
“Sorry, I don't have time for that.”
[Kuroto]
“Don't have time, even though you're covered in snow? You're going to catch a cold.”
[Hanashiro]
“.........Kurotaka isn't here, right?”
[Kuroto]
“.........what?”
[Hanashiro]
“I'm really sorry this is so sudden, but.........I want you to run away with me.”
[Kuroto]
“...............you didn't come to kill me?”
[Hanashiro]
“No way.”
[Hanashiro]
“That person has already figured out the real reason I've been coming here.”
[Kuroto]
“.........the white bird?”
[Hanashiro]
“I thought I could put it off forever, but it's my own fault for not taking them more seriously.........I was told they could no longer wait.”
[Hanashiro]
“They told me I need to kill you right away...............”
[Kuroto]
“...............I see.”
[Hanashiro]
“.........what's with that accepting look!?
No way, are you really going to tell me to kill you too!?”
[Kuroto]
“.........Hanashiro.”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't want to! I'd rather this world be destroyed than kill you!”
[Kuroto]
“Are you saying that seriously?”
[Hanashiro]
“Do you think I'm not being serious?
What about you, why would you say that, are you saying you don't understand how I can think of you in this way!?”
[Kuroto]
“..................”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't want you to gone.........”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't ever want that.........I don't want it!”
[Kuroto]
“.........Hanashiro.”
[Hanashiro]
“Hey.........let's run away, okay? If we go now, it'll definitely be all right. We can still go without anyone finding us.”
[Hanashiro]
“The end isn't certain yet.”
[Kuroto]
“.........but.........”
[Hanashiro]
“There may be a way for you to live.”
[Kuroto]
“.........do you really think so?”
[Hanashiro]
“.....................!”
[Kuroto]
“...............s-sorry..................”
[Hanashiro]
“...............Kuroto.........let's go, okay? Come with me.”
[Hanashiro]
“I don't care where we go. Let's go somewhere you don't have to die, where I don't have to kill you, okay?”
[Kuroto]
“.....................”
[Hanashiro]
“Because.........I have no one else, but you.........”
[Kuroto]
(…..................)
[Kuroto]
(…......and then.........)
We then left the house.
With no destination in mind and our visions filled with nothing but white, we just walked on toward an unseen goal.
I was unable to shake off Hanashiro's hand grasping mine, but it wasn't just because he was overly desperate.
I was surprised he was still able to hold onto hope.
The snow covered everything, it was cold, and in this unknown world, the only thing I was certain of was Hanashiro's warmth.
It was only at that time that I felt like there really may have been something for us at the end.
[Kuroto]
(Even though there was no way there could be.........)
The same way I had Kurotaka, Hanashiro had a bird named Shirofukurou with him.
During the past, when the first Kuroto was born, she served as the prophet who foretold the messiah who would save the world was in Sai. She does this presently as well.
…......that's what I heard from Kurotaka anyway.
[Kuroto]
(…......then, using the army, they came after me)
Hanashiro wasn't born in Sai, but he had been taken in by Shirofukurou at a young age, and raised in the castle.
[Kuroto]
(Though, the actual person said he was sold)
There were troops in the Sai army designated to chase me down, Hanashiro was also formerly a member.
And then, originally, Hanashiro was to lead those troops, capture me, and execute me.
[Kuroto]
(…......as the messiah, to save the world)
But, Hanashiro chose me, betraying the white bird, his family, his country, and the whole world.
[Kuroto]
(No one could have imagined he'd do that)
[Kuroto]
(…......even I had never thought of running away)
Because of Shirofukurou's power of foresight, Sai's army was already heading our way in order to capture us.
Kurotaka didn't show himself, but I knew he was protecting us from Shirofukurou's eyes elsewhere.
That's why when Hanashiro said, let's take the closest route to cross the country border, instead of taking the risk of crossing the mountains, I honestly complied.
…............however.
[Kuroto]
(…......hm.........?)
As expected, it would be impossible.
[Kuroto]
(…......what.........?)
Even though I knew there was nowhere to run.
[Kuroto]
(…......what.........?)
Why did I.........
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